Happens to me intensely when I'm smoking weed. Always feel like I'm never at the "top" and that people always prefer others to me. On sober recollection, I usually have no issues really, I have a lot of friends and all but I feel like the relationships I have aren't as strong as I want them to be (in high school I had crazy close best friends while in college its much different)

People just seem much colder to me than I am to them. It's made me kind of into an asshole where instead of portraying myself as needy or clingy I choose to hang with them but just be on my own and chill on my phone, almost as like a defense mechanism of "I don't need you guys fuck that". I've literally stopped smoking weed because of this and have just chose to drink (or do any other disinhibiting substance) and be fun and talkative instead of just in my head