The only reason I feel like airing out the issues is because after reading his phone he gaslights me and has been scapegoating me as toxic to his friends and family for when he let's them down. There's messages I'm not even with him for days but he's using me as an excuse to let some other person down.

I am not prepared to have my reputation is shreds because of this cunt. His parents think I have a drug addiction to weed. For my graduate degree I'm doing my project on cannabinoids, and only started smoking in my mid 20s due to insomnia and mental health issues. His family are well to do wankers.

My bf also got a bravery award once from PM Gordon Brown after him and other friends rescued someone from drowning while they were all having a drink and drugs day fishing. He has used that bravery award several times to get out of issues with the police in a hit and run etc.

From his messages I am just potentially worried about how I will be viewed. Bf has threatened me a number of times to never let on to anyone about his drug issues but he's making a spectacle of himself in town so hopefully he'll fuck himself over and ill feel vindicated idk I'm just furious currently