I’m going through it right now, I had my first ever boyfriend at 20 when he was 34, we are still together now and despite that it’s a toxic relationship and I know he is not good for me I’m somehow incapable to break it off. I feel embarrassed about it because I’m 25 now so I should be old and wise enough now right, I’m a fucking grown ass woman and I’m scared of dumping this almost 40 year old who mentally and physically abuses, controls and manipulates me and why? I’m scared of being alone? I’m scared of the unknown? I don’t fucking know but I wish 20 year old never fell for this guy’s nice words. And it keeps happening again and again to young women all around me. What’s wrong with us women?