I did this a long time ago. Occasionally when I have long-distance contact with them it's always "when are you flying across the country to visit me?!"

Never, motherfucker. Not a single one of you even tries to pretend you give a shit about me, and every time we talk you give me a self-absorbed rant about some trivial bullshit, or ask me for something.

I have nobody I can turn to, nobody checks in on me. When my mental health is bad (which all of my childhood friends are at least vaguely aware of because of my fucked up life growing up) I sit with it myself, and maybe make some fucked up posts on reddit about how I want to overdose on heroin, or think about which knives would work best for cutting myself.

Relationships for people are transactional, and just like monetary transactions, they'll take as much as they can get away with taking.