Hi, sorry I just need to vent.

So, the need-to-know basics are that my name is Ashley, I'm 25, and 590+ pounds (596 last I checked but maybe even 600, I haven't been weighed since thanksgiving), I'm happy with my body, and other people aren't. Please don't lecture me on my body size and weight, I am legitimately happy how I am. I understand the health risks.

But I can't stop being harassed by everyone! My boyfriend and my sister and my only good friend are the only people that don't torment me constantly. I get texts and phone calls all the time just because it's a good joke or something. I get looks when I go outside. I hear people talk about me behind my back on the rare occasions I go outside, and it's causing hell for friends and family. Before you assume the people who make fun of me "care" about me, I never get a friendly "Ashley, maybe try this diet?", I just get called "the Hog", "Butterball", "Whale", etc., and I get told "Go outside, Lard-Ass." I really love this self esteem boosting...

I want to be how I am in peace. I want to do what I want without constant judgement. I understand that being 590+ pounds isn't healthy, and I understand that I can't force people to stop making fun of me, but I just don't know how to deal with it.