Im sorry this is pretty much my whole experience just need some clarification tbh. I had a similar experience I’m 21 and took acid for the first time i was a chronic smoker at the time i took it with my new bf that im always with of 5 months we started dating right after i got out of a mentally abusive 3 year relationship. I took the acid at 12am i was good until i peaked. I then did a dab around 5 am and lost my mind. His friend goes how are you guys okay with this do you not see these bugs all over you’re room. Meanwhile he took cilatipin before but 4 hours earlier. For some odd reason i thought of my ex out of the blue. I was then stuck in a trance that i couldnt get out of i felt as if everything was repetitive. I asked my bf and his friend “what is this” also they both know my ex. They then said its the paradox. I go the paradox wtf is a paradox so my bf looked it up. After that i was done. I then was stuck in my own body couldn’t move speak anything i was terrified. Started shaking couldn’t control my breathing. Almost passed out. I literally had to tell myself in my head that my parents love me i had to bring my self back to life. I thought i was stuck inside my head forever. I thought bugs were all over me. I thought my boyfriend was still in love with his ex gf still they dated on and off for 5 years. I thought he didnt love me at all and that i was just a test of some sort. I touched him and felt a shock go through my body like a weird feeling. I just wanted to move to another house and another state and get away from everything and leave with him. He told me i was having a mental breakdown. He was wearing a grizzly shirt during this trip he’s an edm artist. I told him i hated the shirt it scared the shit out of me. I told him were going to burn it. Before then i had no problem with the shirt. Finally it was 9 am only slept 2 hours because i just wanted to know what happened with me and what i experienced at his house. I was so depressed and sad that day i stayed up til 1am that night and finally went to bed. I felt a lot better the next day but everything still didn’t make sense to me. I was so scared i stopped smoking weed. I felt better as days went but not myself still. I then went to a musical festival took shrooms that weren’t the best took them around 9pm tripped until 1 hit a blunt once then went back to camp at 3 the same trip happened again out of the blue. I freaked out. He was also wearing the same shirt. I feel like since the musical festival everything is happening for a reason or even by coincidence as my bf says but idk i feel like its something else i randomly get stuck in these trans a few days ago i was stuck again we watched a scary movie all of a sudden i cant control my breathing i start shaking and my pupils were huge i go “what is this” to my bf he’s like what I’m like i want out of this trans idk what this is after 5 minutes i was good. I feel like I’m going crazy. I still think about this stuff everyday and have googled so much about different paradoxes. I cant pin point whats been going on with me. I still question everything.