Man my life is shit right now. Better, I'm a piece of shit right now. It seems that it doesn't matter what happens, but I will never be happy. I always think that eventually I'll be. When I start bulking I'll be better! Then I start bulking and stay unhappy. When I get a job! Nope, still sad. The new thing is "getting a girlfriend" or "moving to the big city". And I already know these are not gonna solve my problems.

It's not that I'm waiting for my goals to be completed through magic. I'm disciplined and working hard to achieve my goals, hoping that they're gonna complete me and make me happy. But it never happens. I'm still sad. Not depressed, just sad. Just worked out, couldn't concentrate thinking about this so I wanted to get it off my head. The pump is nice, though.