I think it's sad that you need the validation of others before you can be proud of being Chinese. No one is gonna respect you until you respect yourself first. China has such a rich history and culture that it's wild that some of us can be ashamed of being Chinese but i guess that's what growing up in the west can do to you. Society will always view us as Chinese first so you can either embrace it or spend your life seeking the validation of others before you can be truly comfortable in your own skin.

In regards to the geopolitical relationship between the west and China, the west may have "liked" us more when China was a weak poor agrarian country that provided them cheap labor but they sure as fuck didn't respect us. In the past 40 years China became a superpower with the second biggest economy on pace to become the first and are directly challenging western hegemony all without firing a single bullet or dropping a single bomb. Wtf is there to be ashamed about? I'm freaking proud of China's rise and development. Have you seen some of their cities and infrastructure like high speed trains? Obviously China isn't perfect or a utopia but they should be allowed to grow and prosper without the west trying to "contain" them.They're moving up in the value chain but the U.S obviously just wants to keep them as their low end manufacturing factory. Fuck that. China's biggest crime is threatening American hegemony unless you think China should just become subservient to the west? Cause that's the only way for China not to be vilified. I don't know about you but I'd rather be feared and respected than liked and pitied. America was literally built on slavery and genocide and has been at war for over 90% of it's existence. They've spent the last decades bullying and plundering the global south under the guise of "freedom and democracy". And you're really gonna let these self righteous fucks shame you for being Chinese? Come on bro.