I know what you mean about waiting... I just made a tips post (idk if that’s against the rules to say so) but I think it could help you. In elementary from k-4 I had selective mutism... grade 5 a new girl came and we became best friends but she moved away in middle school. After that, I’ve literary never had a best friend. In middle and high school, I sat alone at lunch and talked to no one. Right now I’m in college and I’m doing better. I have acquaintances in class and can have small talk. I also have two close online friends (Idk why it’s so taboo to have online friends because you can easily find others you relate to this way. I guess because of catfish but mine aren’t). It gets better.