My whole life seems to be one whole pile of Introspection. Whenever something happens I wonder how it'll affect things (especially my perception of my own thoughts) in the grand scheme of life.
I get upset about anything that can be perceived to be a negative, like someone not responding to a message, even though it's probable they might be sleeping or just busy. My head goes straight to them being annoyed or just ignoring me.
I'm with you on that one. It confuses me especially when you haven't had a reply from that person for a few days, you do start to wonder how the hell the could not have seen that they have a message by then.
how little everything matters. Like if i killed myself, sure a few people would be upset at first, but eventually the pain will go away. People only live for about 80 years, so even if they're sad their entire life (unlikely) it won't matter in the grand scheme of things.
A lot of philosophers (from the late 19th century - mid 20th century) have pondered over the question of our existence (e.g. Albert Camus) and how little of a dent we make.
I've had similar thoughts quite frequently but then we must think that even though we only live for a short time compared to the lifecycle of Earth, we as humans don't perceive time as year by year (e.g. in the sense that at 23.35 we're in 2016 but but 23.50 the year is 2025), we live second by second. So even if people were to get over your death the time that it would take between your death & getting over it (because of our perception of time) would feel eternal. Now please don't feel as if "yeah yeah, you're just saying that Subs-man, but you don't really understand" In a way I do understand we all have the capacity to feel certain emotions whether we end up feeling the full range of our emotions by the time we die is a different story. I may not have felt the emotions you've felt in the same context as you but I can guarantee that I'm still feeling as I'm writing this now. I'm not in a good place myself tell you the truth I feel shit but even if we both feel shit we can feel shit together :)
If you need someone, I'm here :)