I Don't Know Why I'm Here (Dying At 21)

Needless to say, the political scene is like watching a wildfire grow bigger and bigger. Some call it entertaining, but when I'm expected to take a side, that's when it gets irritating.

Unreasonable, to say the least. Disgusting in my own opinion -- and most definitely one I can't expect of someone, especially with my personality. Considering this is more or less the throwaway account I'm using to just confess shit that'll hopefully not come back to me later, sure. The reasonable bit I imagine would come from the non-sexual aspect of the relationship, essentially with them being interested in things that are important to me while having her own likes and dislikes, someone active, supportive, etc. Normal stuff, honestly. The disgusting bit comes from the overemphasis I feel I think of on the sexual aspect -- in addition to the various fetishes I find that I have, an overall sense of submissiveness on their part. Maybe not on the level of 50 Shades of Grey (even I can't get into that totally), but something submissive enough where... yeah. I think you get the idea.

In addition to that not only being an unreasonable, unfair and generally disgusting way to look at a woman, especially in this day in age (while I wouldn't call myself a feminist by any stretch of the imagination with it's hard ties with extremist feminism, I do have a lot of respect for women, I'd like to believe), it's also stupidly hard to believe a personality like mine could possibly attract a personality like that. Especially one in which the relationship is actually healthy.

Tl;dr, my parameters are basically the ones that exist in every guy's mind. Stupid. Superficial. All around fucked.

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