Dropped an entire tray of food in front of multiple large parties today, and my brain checked out

I’m relating so much to feeling conspicuous and like your coworkers no longer like you or think you are competent and especially about your personality being like a rock. I work in a kitchen and this is now my baseline after spiraling for a while letting shame over triggers/dissociation fuel more triggers/dissociation. It sounds like in your case it was one bad day and that’s the sort of thing that’ll be brushed over pretty quick. I know that all this catastrophizing I do leads to some self-fulfilling prophecies so I’ve been practicing trying to remember that everything ebbs and flows…things swing back around and nothing is ever quite as “ruined” as I think it is. It’s still a work in progress.

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