Oh. Ok. This is a Right Royal Fuck Up. Sorry, mate. I truly am. I adore us English/British but us & too much alcohol & not enough therapy or emotional intelligence can really mess up stuff.

Look, when you get home it’s time to find a couple counsellor & go to say 10/12 sessions to try & figure out what’s occurring under the surface. & if she refuses or says yes & then makes no effort to go or during the session- then it’s time definitely to split up. Why am I even bothering with this when you no longer can even look at her? Because you’ve a child together & because it also will help you figure out about what you want & how you deal with stuff- not necessarily with her but for future relationships. Co parenting is better than maintaining a relationship that is dead.

Ps I don’t remotely blame you how you feel.