Thank you so much for everything and the detailed advice. Seriously. Reading stuff like this is very helpful and is sort of giving me a game plan I can feel better about instead of just dealing with the helpless feeling. Blah.

Unfortunately I do not have a photo of him and the school isn’t sharing anything like that with us. I really do appreciate that book recommendation, I’m a big reader and this is exactly what I was hoping for, these types of recs. I just ordered it on Amazon now and it’s supposed to come today. Hopefully it’ll help with the anxiety.

I understand if something seemed off or weird because this whole thing is just so unreal and so much, I just kinda kept going once I began typing. It kinda poured out of me and just is a fucking nightmare you know so I maybe repeated myself too much or who knows what. But I assure you it’s 1000000% real/legit, every single part. I wish it wasn’t.