As a man into crossdressing and feminization and sometimes other elements including power-play, submission, chastity... I am in no way interested in humiliation, degradation, cuckolding, or anything approaching one partner being inferior.

Yes I understand that many people have overlapping kink interests.

What I value and adore and am intensely attracted to is femininity, and so much so that I have my own desires to be pretty and desired. Maybe... I might be interested in roleplaying certain power-exchange elements... but not with a stranger, not with a professional, not with a person who sees me only as an object. I want to be desired, cared for and valued first.

That is very hard to portray in any kind of visual pornography. Where you may have better luck finding a better portrayal is written erotica where the author gives insight into the principals' thoughts and feelings.

Maybe some inventive production can make some visual films where they "break the fourth wall" and share with the audience what they are thinking and feeling? That could possibly be very fun and intimate and entertaining.