Its my own fault, I fully know that, best not read this if you're easily triggered or offended because I'm unapologetic to my standards: I can't lower my standards or settle for than less than what I think I am worth. I won't settle or lower my happiness or enter a relationship where I will only make my partner unhappy because of how unhappy I am with them, nor would I want to change another human being to meet my standards or to mould them in my image of a perfect boyfriend. Humans have faults, I'm not after perfection. It would be cruel and nasty to want someone who is aesthetically pleasing to change who they are for me and that's not me.
Looks mean nothing to me, seriously, personality is everything to me. People society deems conventionally unattractive I could easily find super hot if they have passion, drive and a personality.
This is such a problem for me, When I asked this hot guy their life goal as a "CAREER" their answer was " Just want love and happiness" That answer is so boring, so uneventful, so disappointing, I was sure a few of my brain cells turned cancerous when I heard what he uttered. He went from a ten to a three instantly. I'm attracted to guys who know what they want in life and stick to it. Or at least a inkling. I'm not one of these people who's whole life plan is to party, get some shitty degree in women's studies or some shit, have a family, then dies. No. I want to make a difference. It's the sole reason I set up my own charitable company (Charity that acts as a company) So I can invest, make profits and invest thoughts profits to better the world, LGBT rights, Poor people in 3rd world countries. My life goal includes making it the the largest most powerful company in the world by the time I'm forty. I don't get paid, I do it because I hate seeing others suffer. I need a guy who has a drive, whether small or as large as mine to do something.
Personally, I'm attracted to people doing something because they love it. I.E wanting to be a Doctor because they help people and they like doing that. Fine. I am so not attracted to floaters, people who are like one of my sisters. They're the type of people who have no end goal with their life, They jump from one idea to the next, without working hard to make it a reality. I know its hard for people to decide what they want to do with their life, but once they have a idea, maybe thats when they should start dating because that's a big deal.
Your life is so unique, and you waste it, at least from my perspective on trivial shit.
Also, didn't know this was a deal breaker until recently, if my future boyfriend doesn't play video games... Well hes probably not my boyfriend so it doesn't matter. Super turn off. No Nintendo games, thats Christmas family stuff. I mean real games, PC, XBOX ONE, Playstation 4.
...Cannot for the life of me imagine why I am single. God I sound like a fucking douchebag. Each to their own! OP: I hope you find that special someone. Hold out! ..Not too long though, otherwise you my die of old age.