I used to be Christian, I always did a prayer before meals or anything in general, went to service and learned what the Bible is about. I genuinely loved my faith before and believed in God.

But the breaking point was how I was accused of blaming God when I had depression from traumas like bullying, insults and mistreatment with one of the people being from my older sibling. They linked like every problem I had in my life when I went to a few Christian friends for counseling and they just labelled me like I had no faith and that I wasn’t being very sincere in my understanding of the Bible and that me being depressed is the result of the devil.

I felt so disconnected especially when I thought I could trust one of them the most, and he simply replied me in text while being dismissive of my problems and called out on me being a heretic. I felt al those years put into my faith was a waste of time and that God wasn’t present in my life. I felt more hatred than ever, went into an even deeper depression before my Mom helped me came over it to an extent.

I’m sure there are nice people in religions but this is my personal experience and frankly I don’t mean to offend anyone. Maybe I’ll get over my remaining hatred and lack of faith destroyed by those experiences but that was my breaking point.