OP, don’t do this to yourself. As many of the other posters have suggested, we have the advice you probably don’t want to hear. It’s nigh on impossible to get past cheating.

My BF of three years cheated on me and I forgave him because I felt he was “the one” and he told me about it straight away (literally called me on his way home from the bar). I could always console myself that he would always be honest with me. We continued to date for another year but I could never get over it. I thought about it all the time and every time we were apart I was worried about it happening again.

In the end, he was the one who broke up with me to add insult to injury.

Now it’s two years later and I’ve been dating the most amazing guy for the past six months. I actually wish now that I had had the courage and sense to dump my ex when he cheated and not wasted that extra year with him.

I know it’s hard to believe in this moment, but you WILL meet someone who deserves you and would never put you through the emotional fallout of cheating.

Best of luck, OP.