You want to hear a sob story eh ? Well let me start from when i was a baby, i was mostly sick and i had ear infections constantly, i was always sick as a baby. When i turned 3 my dad left my mom, i was heartbroken. When i was in school i developed ADD/ADHD and i was out of control, i didn't want to do anything, when i was about 10 or so i got asthma and allergies and was in the hospital a bit from those, i couldn't even visit my dad because the state he was in made me very sick. When i was 16 or so i was not doing good in school, i ended up homeschooling with a teacher and i became very ill, as time pasted my heart felt like it was being crushed so after a few days of telling my mom to let me go to the hospital we finally called the paramedics and i almost died due to my heart being crushed because some virus went to my heart and my heart started making fluid. At that time i was like 90 pounds, for about a year or so after the heart surgery they didn't know why i was still getting fluid in my heart i would also get these episodes where i would get very sick for a week or 2 with constant pain and throwing up, after that the doctor discovered i had a disease called Addison's disease, which would mean i take pills every day for the rest of my life or i end up dying. Well when they didn't know what was happening they put me on really high dose steroids which cause me to bloat up and be chubby like double me weight i got strech marks all over my waist area and i didn't even feel like i was in my own body, i gained weight so quick, i hated my body and i still do as nothing has changed. After being very ill for a year or 2 i ended up dropping out of high school, i still had add/adhd and wasn't even doing good in school anyways. So i sat home playing xbox not even thinking about my future for like 2 years and because of that my body became very weak and me being as sick as i was my mom applied me to social security, throughout the time i developed depression and only had 1 friend left from school. We didn't do much but hang around in the house now adays, when we were both in middle school we would ride bikes all the time and do random shit, he ended up not being my friend anymore due to me not being able to do much with him anymore and i still tried to stay in contact with him but he ended up moving away, i have no friends now and the only people i socialize with is people i play games with. They are my only friends that i have. Not having friends for a while made me develop social anxiety. Now after all that ive been trying to get on social security but they denied me like 2 time and ended up getting a laywer for my probably final time, im going through the process right now and im getting doctor checkups for them, at this time i had high thyroid levels and my mom already has thyroid disease and my brother developed diabetes, we have a thing that runs in our family called autoimmune disease and it makes our body attack itself. Well anyways the doctor ended up telling me i now have hashimoto's disease which is an inflamed thyroid or something like that. Anyways im 22 now i don't have a job, i have many body problems and mental problems, i haven't seen or even talked to my dad in a few years, i don't have any income and i live with my brother for free. I'm depressed as hell, my decisions in school are a big regret. I have social anxiety and i don't have any friends in real life. I've tried to get on social security like 2 times and im now in the process with a laywer, i don't feel like my life is destoned to go anywhere and i have a feeling that i won't live very long, i've had thoughts to kill myself sometimes and i keep all my feelings bottled up because if i tell anyone close to me ill probably kill myself, anyways im getting a bit emotional so im going to end this here.