You are confused about what it means but I get your a beta or sub male that yearns for a Dom partner. First, focus on finding someone to be with in life. It isnt a fetish where you can say Im a cuckold first then find a partner, doesnt make any sense because if she knows this going in then really never hit the mark on why some of us find it so powerful.

Usually its done yrs into a relationship where neither ever imagined either would have sex with another again but then you mutually agree to allow her? Imagine finding a woman you are in love with, you have a good life, maybe even kids and then another man one day makes it known he wants to sleep with your wife. And then you find out she really wants to do it with him and you find out later they fucked and shes expecting you to be mad but you accept it...now she knows your not gonna stop her and she starts to sleep with him more often and other men and doesnt even hide it from you.