But i am mediocre, im not particulary young, im atractive but not something you cant get in a billion more people(im quite thin, i guess thats a plus), im good enough at conversations but im no phd in anything, i dont have any interesting hobbies. Im good, that's it. We have been monogamous, but he did talked a lot about his previous 10 year poly relationship. I remember me trying to make him admit that it was clear that he was interested in a similar deal, but he said that because i was so meek and subby it felt wrong to introduce another person. I guess now he's coming to terms with the fact that he can't provide that for me, so the only options are breaking up or trying to work the poly thing out. The past relationship he had was with a unicorn, she was too good to be true, so im here trying to fit the shoes and its inhuman. I feel very sad because, again, i can tell he likes me, but im not anything of what he wanted, im waiting for him to realize that. And i hope that its not that realization that made him want to have a second, more interesting, woman to share.