I'm also here to talk, if you'd ever like some eyes to read your story. Please don't give up. I know you're an engineer but forget about the statistics for a little bit. Join a woodwork class, or amateur hockey, or go on your community page right now and find a volunteer position. Then when you screw up inevitably, or if things don't change in a month or two and you're ready to give up, force yourself to show up again. And again. And again. And again.

Another thing I've noticed is that 'exciting times and fun' must always be manufactured. It's deliberate. It's you going to a new coffee shop every week and striking a conversation with the old guy sitting in front of you reading the news. It's you writing down everything you want to do, and then doing it, slowly, and then writing about it after doing it. It just doesn't happen by itself. And you'll get there, trust me. Just start small.

Put yourself out there, and since you're such a facts guy, at least do something to enhance those numbers you've given us. Get out and meet people, and just listen to them, for now. People love listeners. I'm sorry if this come off as generic, run-of-the-mill advice, so if you ever really just need someone to talk to, or an accountability partner, or someone who'll listen to you, I'm here.