If it was no big deal, why do you say you were "forced" to relive it? How many other totally fine things you like and want render you non-functional for six month stretches? Good experiences don't haunt people for decades.

Pain is not the deciding factor in what makes CSA wrong. Three year olds are supposed to be learning the alphabet and playing with crayons, not being used as objects for an adult's satisfaction. Even when there are no physical wounds, CSA fucks you up for life.

Case in point, here you are arguing that you, a preschool aged child, were capable of giving meaningful consent. You've raised a child, would you be fine if your father had sex with them?