I'm Ready To Run Away, Looking For Advice From Anyone Who Has

i am in a similar boat. i am 24 years old and graduated college in 2013. i'm currently employed as a lab technician. it is soul-crushing work. but the paycheck keeps me leashed to the job. a couple years ago, i wanted to backpack through Southeast Asia but i ended up getting accepted into college and my plans changed. but that inner yearning for adventure has never left me. i cant say that i'm depressed or anything (ive definitely been in a worse position) but i am utterly bored with my job and do not wish to join the corporate ladder. the only solace i have is in entrepreneurship. it provides the autonomy and creative aspect that most jobs lack. ive been playing with a few ideas but havent invested any serious time or money into anything. so before i do so, i would like to travel. i have a few months worth of money to get by. im kinda pissed that i squandered so much of my paycheck on worthless activities when i could've saved it for traveling (for me, stress just leads to impulse decisions). i think Central America is a great location. I've also thought about Southeast Asia (i have some family in the Philippines). my only problem is, in the back of my mind, i think traveling may be a waste of my time. instead, i could be building up a profitable business which will provide financial stability to travel in the future. i also feel that i'm attempting to escape my problems at home instead of confronting the issues and dealing with them appropriately. but maybe traveling a bit and clearing my head would allow me to put everything into perspective and help solve them? also, if i take a 2 month hiatus, i may not have a job to come back to. so i am still figuring out my situation.

my advice would be to just go! have a general itinerary, research a few locations and let people know where you will be staying, and buy that plane ticket. it could literally change your entire direction in life.. i feel myself getting closer and closer to the same decision. as spring rolls through, i know i wont be able to stay cooped up in a laboratory for long. i live in california, so that trip through mexico doesn't sound so far fetched. i suggest asking some of your close friends to go with you. if not, solo traveling is just as fun and much more heavy on introspection and reflection (are they the same thing?)

i leave you with this quote:

"The Idealist’s search for self is fundamentally incompatible with the experience of finding the Self. Their romantic longing for identity means that they feel most authentically themselves only when they are seeking themselves; they are themselves only if searching for themselves; and they would cease being themselves if they ever found themselves."

cant remember where its from but i saved it while going through some MBTI articles. you may not "find" yourself out there, but you'll learn a whole lot about the person you are and be a few steps closer to accepting that person as yourself.

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