But if you really really wanted to die you would be already dead. Don't you think?

No, I don't, and that's one of the single biggest myths about suicidal people...that if they were really serious, they'd just do it...that anyone who talks about it instead of actually committing suicide is just after attention, and doesn't really want to die. Would be nice if mod /u/SQLwitch had time to talk about it. I'm sorry for bothering you but....i don't know, I guess i'm too stupid to jsut lte it go. i'm really sorry and it won't happen agian.

i'm sorry.

Back to the matter at hand, those are some of the biggest beliefs about suicidal people, and they're also some of the most wrong ones. Most of the research on suicide in recent history has revealed the literal opposite...most people who go on to commit suicide successfully tell someone, or a lot of someones, about it beforehand. And then people say worse things like, "If you really wanted to die you'd just do it instead of dong this stupid attention-whore business", and they feel even worse and eventually do it.

Suicide is one of the hardest choices to make, and it's not just as simple as "just make the choice, your instinct means nothing.'' Suicide is a hard choice. Saying you can just ignore your instincts is like saying you can choose not to scream if someone shoots you in the eye. I mean, yes, you can, but it's hard. really, really hard, and you'd have to concentrate super hard not to follow your instincts.

Some instincts are easy to ignore, and yes, we can override them, otherwise nobody would be able to commit suicide. But it's not an easy choice. Desensitization is a huge part of suicide....becoming less and less sensitive to death....overcoming that your brain's instinct to survive no matter what. For instance, holding an unloaded gun to your head and pulling the trigger constantly, to desensitize your body to the fear of doing it when it's loaded.

Why do you care about bothering other people? If you bother them its their problem not yours.

I think you may not have understood any parts of my post. That's okay. But it really sounds like you didn't understand any of it. I coudl spend ten mintues answering that question but if the psot didn't explain it to you, there's not much I can say that will help you understand it.