I'm Stephen Bullivant, Catholic theologian and scholar of atheism... AMA!

Consider them all in their claims. But judge them on their fruit.

I wasn't born into christianity. I was in fact born and raised in a Hindu environment. Implicitly or otherwise, the worldview around me was Hindu (reincarnation, karma, caste, deities etc). I believed in them too until I reached an age of maturity where I couldn't square those teachings with my conscience.

So I went on a intellectual tour of religions and philosophies. From greek/roman to Buddhist, Sufi and even Islam. Atheist and agnostic to the hell and brimfire of islamic thought. They all had good things, bad things. The closest I actually came to settle on was Buddhist (which again has an south asian agnostic flavor and a more chinese/japanese atheistic flavor)

All that changed when I encountered Jesus in the gospels. He was unlike any other self-claimed prophet, god-man, incarnation, philosopher anywhere.

Many western christians marvel at the 'God became man' theme and attribute their faith to the uniqueness of that claim. As a Hindu, that didn't really impress me. We have Krishna, Rama and a plethora of other 'incarnations'.

What really struck me was how he behaved. If God indeed came down to become man, how would he behave? Krishna came and married 16000 women, abducted one for his friend, engaged in war. Rama used deceit to kill a good guy so he could gain an ally in war. Mohammed talked about being a prophet for a kind God but went about killing and taking wives. I thought to myself, if there is a God, the creator of this universe and he came down to earth, is this what he would do? - marry a bunch of women or win a few kingdoms/land at the tip of the sword? Wouldn't he have something greater to say to us? Something that would explain the nature of the truth that we can't see?

And then here is this Jesus fellow. He says he's God but he washes the feet of his disciples. He preaches, heals and teaches love. He becomes vulnerable enough to be defeated by his enemies. What kind of God is this I thought??

Then it struck me. A God who doesn't need to impress us with his power. But a God who shows his humility. A God that shows his nature that is love. A God who earned a kingdom by winning hearts - and how? - by being innocence itself that took on all the hate that we have as humans. It doesn't matter that the Romans did it or the Jews... a God that convicted us by showing who WE really are (fallen, depraved) and who HE really is (love, humility) and what a chasm that exists between us!

There was no character I'd encountered in fact or fiction, that was more compelling than Jesus, the person the gospels depict. So I put out my honest inquiry into the universe to see if there indeed is any truth to this claim. And I was surprised beyond measure in the answer I got - in my own acquiescence to willingly accept becoming subject to this King - in his kingdom of hearts.

His Kingdom is ever living because it is a kingdom of hearts. Hearts won not by coercion, or at the tip of a blade, but in convicting them of their nature, and showing them His.

I consider this my truth. You will have to find yours. But don't give up until you do and don't settle for cheap intellectual compromises.

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