I generally don't even relate to overt showings of emotion. I would never call my response "disdain" though. That's what a sociopath feels. Most of us are not sociopaths. I'm definitely not.

It's more that I just straight up do not understand what could possibly make me feel like I needed to cry in front of a group of people. I internalize extreme emotion. I rarely have any compelling need to express emotion outwardly so that the people around me can see clearly what I feel. My emotions are personal. It's not that I necessarily hide them, but nor do I share them. It's mostly that sharing them is not high on my priority list when I'm feeling strongly enough that it would rock my composure.

Crying in public is just not something I could even conceive of doing. I do not understand what could compell somebody to do it. I don't relate to it on any level. And usually if I see somebody else crying in public, I'm genuinely at a loss for what to do, especially if I don't have the type of relationship where I could go over and hug them. It's not at all disdain that I feel. It's not indifference either. It's mostly paralyzing confusion. It's like...what the fuck am I even supposed to do here? If you're wondering about my blank expression in that moment, that's probably what it means.