https://youtu.be/VPPunKCpElg I was looking at the 7 steps of the “Dark night of the soul” and I feel as if I am on the very brink of the last step. I went from being classified by society around me as this thin awesome runner who then got injured and faced weight gain which made eating disorder worse lost my identity as if it was a crisis I didn’t know who I was anymore or what I had become. I couldn’t find that joy anymore, I didn’t have close relationships with anyone, and these spots in stomach have opened up into ulcers. All of this in the past year. I’m going to have to face this very soon, so my questions are what comes out of it when it’s over? Is the reward of all this suffering worth it to keep going on?(have thought about ending life and attempted many months ago), and finally what did YOU personally get out of it?