I feel your pain bro, I am not gonna doubt we are in the same boat type of feeling because it’s like I know what I have to do to get out of this loop, but the doing it part is like a terrifying thought, I’ve narrowed my problems down to the past root problems and relatives of mine which hurt me pretty bad mentally, when I force myself to stop I usually just isolate myself and then I convince myself that I’d rather just get drugs then avoid the world. Wish I could offer useful advice to help you quit but I know the mental aspect of it can be the wall that just flat out feels too high to geto over. I just wish my problem was just the drug thing, it would make things easier for me, but it’s not. But out of curiosity you mentioned going 2 months at a time, do you remember what you were thinking where you weren’t using during that time? Then do you remember what your thoughts were when you gave in?