What makes you think that it should be easy for guys to get laid, though? Sex involves two people and if one person doesnt want to have sex they shouldn't have sex. The problem is that I never really considered what I wanted. It was always about what they wanted. And yes many of them were forceful, manipulative, etc, and usually things occurred when I was drunk like really drunk I had no experience in rejecting people. I didn't know how to reject people, the very first time I ever dated or had sex with anyone they were all people well below my league and I just didn't want to hurt them by rejecting them because I had never been desired before

I went to an all girls school so male attention was few and far in between. I don't think I ever rejected anyone up until I smartened up. I just thought that I would be making all these low value men happier and in the end their happiness isn't really worth giving up my own self worth and respect. If they want to have sex they should find someone who wants to have sex with them, not pressure a girl who doesn't know how to say no into having sex.

I think my inability to say no stemmed from being touched inappropriately by a family member. So all in all had I given less of a fuck about hurting some guys feelings because I didn't want to have sex, and if I had said no, I wouldnt have felt so shitty for a long time and not know why. Of course all of this was subconscious so I didn't know why I felt sick after doing things I didn't want to do.

When I learned that I could have just said no and not care what these people think or say then I realized it was a big mistake. You're very hurtful with what you're saying but I don't really care. I love my boyfriend and his happiness is what matters to me. My happiness matters to him. That's what makes me feel good.

I was never meant to be a slut. I care too much about what others think and not about myself. I didn't look after myself and that was wrong. I think people need to look after themselves and do what makes them happy. If I could go back in time I would have only had sex once I felt comfortable, like I did in my first LTR. I had already set a precedent with dating and giving myself up to the lowest quality men because the first guy to ever show an interest in me was a low quality man.

I don't know if all women had rock bottom self esteem issues like me. It doesn't matter now since I can see I'm clearly attractive and I should have seen it years ago then maybe I'd have the confidence to tell guys to fuck off.