I feel like nothing will change the past and present or even future at this point, I can't feel better period.

Don't say this. It reads, this apology really isn't sincere because it won't matter anyway.

I got through this and I don't think it's going to get you anywhere.

Don't be general. Say I am sorry I did X. I did it because X. I am sorry I hurt you.

List what you did specifically. Apologize for each. Recognize how it made her feel.

When you throw general statements around it sounds like you know you did something you should be sorry for, but you don't really know what that is. But you are sorry.

Don't say I know you don't care about me unless you legitimately believe it. If you don't, that's a guilt play. I have only ever said this to one person and I believe it.

Don't say you're a terrible person or a piece of shit. That puts her in the position of comfortimg you. This apology is about her and her feelings.

Don't blame the medication. You made choices.

Apologies are hard. They're supposed to be. Genuine apologies are truthful no matter how bad a light it puts you in. Be painfully straight with her. Don't hold back details or minimze so you can seem not as bad. That comes across totally fake.

You may get one shot at this. Go all in. Good luck.