I was thinking like some of us start life below zero and some of us start above zero. And the end of the life we meet on the zero. Of course this was a thought when i was a child.

About after death my thoughts are religious. And there is no certain way to prove it which opinion is true. But for the life, I experienced it is a cycle. I saw in my family, people punished for their action before death. Also it is huge and complicated, it is not easy to see whole line since everyone lost in details. But i saw many people lives from a point to death. And i realized there is nothing unreasonable and unpaid. That’s why i affraid of hurting people because i know there will be a comeback even though I don’t realize at the first.

About why we are experiencing this things, we are learning and i think we serve something that we are not capable to understand. Like a mouse in labyrinth, mouse don’t know why he has the find cheese. I am not saying we are the exact position like mouse but it seems logical to me not able to understand the universe, purpose and every mystery. If i could understand them all, what is difference me and God ?

Maybe we are learning the God from its creation. Idk, maybe everything i say is wrong.