My PTSD was diagnosed in 2016/2017. An event in my life triggered this. Was not able to sleep, repetitive nightmares from that event, put on so much weight, memory problems. I don't remember 2017 a lot. I was dating someone around then and they used it to their own advantage. Thought my ex was helping me, instead he was using it against me. But it is a different ex. You're very correct that it is very easy to find yourself attracted to someone and believe they only want the best for you. These days I don't feel like I am being affected by PTSD. Not sure if it is possible to heal it completely, it might be re-triggered later in life again. My therapist believes that it is both depression and anxiety that's taking over my life right now. Especially depression.

He's always been the best. I have a lot to learn from him. Very much admire his strength. He had his own difficulties in his life, that's why I don't want him to be suffering for me right now. He shared with me many times he's been worried about me. They're the only two people in my life I am closest with. I am thinking about inviting him over for dinner tonight or tomorrow. I still live with my family and I will be upfront with both of them about what my therapist told me. So I will see what each one of them say.

Thank you! Really hope that I can do it.