This is going to be a bit of a different response so bear with me. For the last 10 months I have been growing a beard. Yes, a stupid beard. Do you know how long it took me to get up the "courage" to grow out a beard? Years, fucking years! As a man, it is so hard to be able to understand women and their emotions when we have nothing to compare it to. A simple beard is as close as I can get to creating something with my body, and yet I was still afraid! I'd grow it out then mess up a trim and have to cut it all off. I'd grow it out and someone would make fun of me and I'd cut it off. Do you realize how silly I sound?

Yet here you are, you never gave up, you never second guessed yourself. You went for it! You are so incredibly brave to try and make a baby, it is so far beyond anything that I can even imagine. You are hurting, but you have to realize that making a baby is extremely difficult when you really put it in perspective. In 10 months I've grown a 7 inch beard... just pubes on my face. In 6 weeks you had made a beating heart inside of you, something that you could feel and love. You have to realize how extremely complicated that is (and Amazing!) in the grand scheme of things and be Proud of yourself for doing that. Yes the baby is gone and it's going to be hard to get over that, but you will push on and because of the way you say you feel now, everyone will encourage you to try again! You are human but you are MORE than that. You are already a nurturing mother whether you feel that way or not. So Let it out, but when you talk about it (and you should talk about it!) Talk about it with pride. You were making a life! You didn't do anything wrong, you were doing everything right! You can never blame yourself for trying. Remember that! Please go hang out with family, it will be good for you. Remember, you were once someones baby too and they love you just as much as you loved your baby. Keep looking at baby names, keep trying, continue getting excited for it. It will happen eventually! Even if you end up adopting (like 3 of my friends just did!) You will still feel the same exact way about your baby. Do not get discouraged, and please eat some good food and be with your husband and family this holiday. Don't pass it up. You can do this, you have already done so much more.