its like depression is some sort of furnace and booze was just making it burn hotter in all sorts of ways. heres a few of the big ones.. its hard to actually accomplish anything on booze. and what i mean by "on booze" includes the day after being unable to really function AND the fact that i would drink so hard it would wipe out old memories ... the stretches between blackouts... so theres that. lack of accomplishments would seem to validate and intensify the depression. i dont deny there are cases of chemical imbalance leading to depression but... just sayin... fixing little stuff really helps me. lucky for me this house needs a million tiny repairs. immediate reward stuff like clean the damn kitchen. make the bed. this is the real deal because you sound smart. you may know youre smart. and if you are truly smart and not living SMARTLY you are actually going to be very frustrated and dissappointed in yourself deep down. thats more likely than a chemical imbalance i think. i know a few people who can hardly write their own name, yet live smartly. you know you should be doing better things with your smartness. i truly believe you dont think your way into good actions. you start with the action.. heres a short clip i like . adam carolla starts talking @4:28 and its great