I'm so sorry that's happening to you, but even if you can't afford therapy twice a week, a little help it's better than nothing, I never got any help...and this, doesn't get better with time, I've been sick for eight years now, maybe not in my body anymore, but the thoughts don't really stop unless you take care of it.... And the thoughts get progressively worse, believe me, focus on making friends, being happy, it's harder to have an ED when you are surrounded by people who love you, making friends trs so important, try to talk to your classmates, if they reject you, their loss, try again with someone new, eventually many are going to realize you are actually friendly, try talking to someone new every day, you'll find at least 1 friend I promise, I can assure you that at least 1 person is waiting for someone to approach them because they have a har time making friends