I don't know how my trip ended. All I know is that I am still here, but all the memories of the talk and everything that happened in the loop is still affecting me to this day, months later. I don't know if I will ever forget this, but one thing is for certain, it's a memory that has affected me, and has affected me into not doing drugs anymore. And I dont feel the urge or the need to do it anymore.

Yes, I'm still curious and I would like to do LSD another time. I have only done it three times, and 2 of them are still 2 of my best memories sharing with someone.

But memories of such events are only beautiful and good memories if they are rare. When events like these keep happening no matter if they are good or bad trips. They become common. I don't seek common experiences from Drugs.

The reason I tried drugs in the first place was for something new, something exciting something that would change me for life, and I think I've found it. And I won't take it for granted.

I hope more people realize what I have realized, and what that VR12 engine (lol) made me realize on afterthought. It made me realize that these drugs are not for overuse, that will make the experience less epic and less insane it will make them a every day occurence. And that is not why I do them, I do them for the once in a lifetime experience that can only be shared or experienced with special people you care about.

And the trip I made alone, will forever be a trip I made alone and fucked up. But fucking up is never a bad thing if you learn from it. If I ever have kids, I know exactly how to behave around their age of experiencing what I have experienced. And I would love to share this story with them because I know they will and can learn from it aswell.

Oh well, thanks for reading everything if you did. This was my big fuckup and a lifechanging experience.

sorry if my english is bad, not a native speaker.