I still don't think I open up to much with people, what makes you assume that? I'm not sure why the people in this thread have said that. I am gonna explain too much here for context though. The last time I had a date 4 or so years ago, i just didn't tell the person my issues. They asked me on the third date why I hadn't had sex with them and I ended up getting intimate with them and being unable to perform. They ghosted me right after. And I still hate myself for not being able to be intimate with someone. It just seems I can't win either way I have tried a lot of things. I am careful with people I don't think I open up really fast. I agree that I am a bad judge of when. The last person I opened up to used my trust against me and that was after two years of working with the person. It's it because I've said I've tried hundreds of time to make friends? I don't have really any successes as far as meeting people. Maybe like 3 dates in ten years, no friends, I used to set quotas that I'd message maybe ten people a night and try and talk to them. That's how I got to hundreds because I started in my early 20s.