I don't think my identity is simply that question, in fact in my ideal world I want to let go of those labels, but I'm still living in the world where people still use labels and labels will become more and more important, and I don't really fit into either. I don't identify myself with autism,I don't think my inner processing is autistic, I have no sensory problems and so on... But I don't have the "neurotypical childhood" either. When I was young, I think getting de-diagnosed would've been enough to unchain me, but now I feel the need to prove myself in the world that is all about identity.

It saddens me that the cultural mainstream has no place for me... I sometimes think maybe it's better if I can escape to a commune that's cut off from the rest of society, and I'm getting done with social media... But I am not so happy about that prospect.

I agree with you that professional life is about not saying certain things, but at the same time other people wouldn't have a second thought when they talk about their childhood, while I need to lie enough that it is a habit.

Do you believe that misdiagnosed people will be understood someday?