im not gonna watch that whole thing.

but, that being said, when people approve of your actions it isn't a bad thing. That's kind of the point I was trying to make is that there is this voice in people's head that tells them the right thing to do doesn't apply to them. This can manifest in a lot of excuses.

One of the most common ones is that it feels good, and it is relatable. It's easy for people to think they already empathize with someone like me who doesn't have orgasms unless its for a kid because what I'm doing is a lack of action. And they might think that simply because they have had times between orgasms that they can relate to my experiences, and that the people who they really want to empathize with are the people who have sex all the time, and the people who do drugs, or make a lot of money. That THOSE are the unique people who feel alone and not people like me.

So calling it "people pleasing" is a silly thing to do, because in essence what I am doing is suffering for my own sake. From a deep belief that living simply is healthy for my soul.

Being good isn't secretly more addictive and bad for you than being bad. Things are black and white. The way I am living is not fun. The way other people are living is fun. And I think fun is bad for you. So yes, being nice fucks me over, but long term in a grander sense than just this life, being nice is better for you, and everyone knows it.

And that applies to everyone. Man female black white it's all the same. The more you suffer, the better you're life will be in the long run. And as soon as possible it is vital people realize that. That it's not a subconscious thing, that it is more of a choice to do nothing than it is to do something. There is a knowledge to be gained.

It's back to my point that having no sex your entire life and then having frivolous sex at the end of your life is as bad as having sex everyday your whole life. There is no knowledge to be gained. True knowledge is making the choice to not understand something. Knowing everything there is to know in this world is about knowing what it is like to live the least you can. And everyone knows it. But it's a choice people have to make on their own ( Although there's nothing wrong with giving others a little help)