I kept convincing myself of that as well. It is kind of funny how people started loving me after I started to let go of that thought... after I stopped caring as much about how literally everybody else perceived me. After I finally realized that it was one of the most unhealthy choices of my past to allow others to determine my life, turn being loved in a life goal of mine and make it an absolute requirement for me to be loved by others in order to be able to ever become happy.

I gave myself space, cut off all toxic communications with others and started again but with a different mindset and much less desperation. I used to try adjusting myself so others would like me, others would love me even. I hated myself, no way someone could accept accept me like this, and in this state. Never again though. It was a tough road for me and I needed to learn my lessons the hard way, but it turns out that I can be loved, despite my previous beliefs. I learned that I am being loved even partly because of features I was trying to hide or change. Someone will love you. It is just difficult to tell how or when or whatever. Don't convince yourself you are not enough, not worth it or have too many issues. You have the right to be loved just as much as anyone else. Just try to realize that you have to live life for yourself in the first place, and being loved also is not the solution to problems and also will not magically lift a depression or restore your self-image completely. It can help, but these things take time to take place and grow into something bigger and valuable, as an addition to life, not to fill an emptiness in your life.