I'm honestly not sure. I assumed that because she was familiar with the problems I had had during pregnancy and childbirth, that she would be better informed on the problems I was having postpartum. And like I said, I didn't care about bedside manner so much as real help. I knew going in that she was a stone cold bitch (a friend warned me), but I thought she was a good doctor, and that's all I really cared about at the time. Turns out it's difficult to share personal issues with a stone cold bitch, and her treatment and advise was just poor and misleading.

For instance, sex was reeeeally painful for me after childbirth. I knew that could be an issue for up to six months or so for breastfeeding moms, but it was still a problem for me at nine months. So I went in and talked to her about it. She told me that I needed to see a sex therapist and that I had been traumatized by childbirth, and was so afraid of getting pregnant again that I was too tense to have sex. My husband had had a vasectomy, so this just wasn't true. I wasn't worried about getting pregnant again. I was tense, but I was tense because it was physically painful. I didn't see a sex therapist because I couldn't afford it, but being told that it was all in my head made me really question my sanity at a point when I was pretty emotional and hormonal. Because my doctor had ruled out breastfeeding as the cause, I just decided I was defective and continued to breastfeed. I breastfed for a year and a half and couldn't have sex that entire time. Having no intimacy with my husband and being completely preoccupied and overwhelmed as an around the clock milk cow really put a strain on my marriage. But I thought I was doing the best thing for my kid. When I couldn't take it anymore, and started to wean her off the purportedly magical boob, there was an immediate difference. Sex almost became bearable. Once she was fully weaned, I was cured. It had been breastfeeding hormones the entire time. I didn't realize until later that it's fairly common for some breastfeeding women to just shut down completely down there. If I had known this, I would have put my kid on solids sooner. I wouldn't have felt guilty, defective, and crazy and my marriage would have been a lot better off.

Sorry about the rant. I don't know what I'm talking about anymore.