But I don't think that just accepting being depressed is a solution. I won't accept digging yourself deeper down the same hole as a solution either. And I won't actively advocate for suicide.

And that's fine. For you. but you need to understand that just because you don't believe in something doesn't mean that it's wrong or incorrect for another person to believe in it. you don't have to advocate suicide...I can do that for me just fine.

I won't accept somebody's blood on my hands.

you also have to understand that saying "i understand and won't try to change your mind" doesn't put blood on your hands. you can't control them. :/

But I still think that accepting your position isn't really the way to go.

but at the end of the day, it's not about what you think, unless it's in respect to your own life. in this case it's about what the other person does. and for the record, i'm not accepting my position. i'm taking action to make sure i don't feel pain anymore. whether you want to accept it or not, i'm taking steps to stop the pain, whether you accept them or not.

I'm not mad at you. but you have this thing where you're like "you need to try more" and i've stopped trying. i've gotten to that point. and you're hammering it in still, like "you still need to take action"..

but then you tell me that my action(s) aren't the "right ones." so what you really are saying is "do exactly what I want and then it will be the right choice." and that's just kind of sad/upsetting.

For me, Drugs will be and all will be a distraction. In my opinion, they eliminate your chances of success through the artificial feeling of happiness you achieve through them and the massive expense of maintaining the habit.

I don't use drugs to feel happy. i've actually on several occasions used them to stop feeling happy. you know what i do use them for?

The feeling of numbness. it's all about numbness. that's the feeling i essentially have lived for for years. and when you crave numbness, what's suicide really, except a chance to not feel?