When i got there i was in a bad mood for very legitimate reasons. SOmeone started drama out front, i caught an entire train thats never before existed on that road ever. I also brough them a bunch of stuff and when i got there she couldnt even come outside to help me? I go to the door she says "oh you're making the dogs bark" i said "oh im sorry ill fucking get and do everything" We have barely hung out and all we done is bone. Tonight i saw her true self. Cold, shitty, distant, selfish, her whole mood changed though after "doing it" and then i was totally disgusted. Im bailing on her as of that few things alone.
When i got there i was in a bad mood for very legitmate reasons. Someone was trying to fight at the store, then i had captain dicface riding my ass with brights on, i caught an entire train thats never before existed on that road ever. I also brought her a bunch of stuff and when i got there she couldnt even come outside to help me? I go to the door she says "oh you're making the dogs bark" (haha im already built up super annoyance at this point) i said "oh im sorry ill fucking get and do everything" We have barely hung out and all we have done is bone. Its all overrated. There is no love in this world. Tonight i saw her true self. Cold, shitty, distant, selfish, her whole mood changed though after "doing it" and then i was totally disgusted. Im bailing on her as of that few things alone. I sked her one thing and she snapped out then i lashed back and told her to cut the shit tone before it gets ugly in here. Bitch doesnt even know where i live.
I also asked her "you are talking about your family a lot i dont mind but i lost mine and wouldnt it be hard like what would you do in this world if you lost your family? her depth was this:? "yeah, that would be hard"" "blah blah blah my family my family my family. Oh my god. I was so fucking annoyed and put off. I dont care how magical anything else is. The highly overrated Dating, friends, sex, all of it is hopeless. Get lots of life experience and you;ll know this as fact. Fuck even having sex. Im done with "closeness" I get more respect from severely mentally ill enemies than i do from trying to be close to someone genuinely. People truly cant do it. The counselor also says i have a "warped view of the world with my pessimism" ha. Everyone gaslights you and even pathetic people think im some sounding board to tell all their lame boring family stories to. I DONT GIVE A FUCK. Im sitting there asking shit, people dont even ASK ANYTHING... SO NOW yes NOW I DONT CARE. I was trying to but i see this is the same old shit. One thing im good at being, is not a doormat. Truly always they think kindness is weakness and truly they always think they're a god damn victim but its clear as day they dont care about you at all. Just keep up all those good benefits! Fuck you.