Hi OP. I don't have much advice but wanted to comment because I can relate to your post. I have had a lot of problems dealing with people in workplaces especially, and don't really have any friends left. I used to but they were all fair weather friends and narcissists who didn't care when I kept getting signed off work with severe depression and having to have treatment for it, they never messaged me.

So I ditched them as an act of self care and self love but it's scary being so alone. My attempts at making new friends have mostly fallen flat. I have met people who seemed to want to be friends but then it turned out they wanted something from me - one was trying to recruit me to her evangelical church, another was pretty blatant about using me for my local connections. Lately I thought I'd made friends with a neighbour but after she oddly uninvited me to a group she'd organised I noticed a lot of red flags from her that she doesn't like or respect me but is using me again for my resources and practical help.

I have met good people who did seem to like me and have time for me, people I got on well with for years in jobs for example. So I try to remember that when I find myself in a 'everyone hates me' spiral.

Unfortunately a lot of people out there are very selfish and only in it for themselves. There are also a lot of narcissists, bullies, liars and cheats out there. It sounds like that workplace you joined was horrible and full of bullies so don't see it as a reflection of your worth. You sound like a nice genuine person to me.

One thing that I read that might help is instead of asking yourself 'why don't they like me' or saying 'I hope they like me,' when you join a new group as yourself 'who do I like.' You are worthy of being treated with respect, it's not just about wha they think of you, your opinion on them is just as important.

I also think focusing on feeling better about yourself weight-wise will help, as you'll feel happier in your body and more confident. I put on a stone in weight due to emotional eating when grieving. I've started to do yoga again and will go to the gym soon and look for a new yoga class. It always makes me feel better to be slim and active and healthy. Focus on being your own best friend while continuing to try new things but with boundaries, remembering that you matter too.