having second thoughts rn I started when I was 12 and have only taken 1 short year-long break in my whole 8 years of smoking of course it didn't start with everyday use but now that I'm 20 years old I'm starting to realize how much I have let it become a crippling dependence.... and has been for at least the last 3-4 years of my existence I too feel like I lack motivation, especially in my schooling and relate to the foggy mind as well as more anxiety at least for me, I can't even leave the house without feeling the extreme urge to smoke first (which ironically makes me even more anxious when I'm out of the house I'm so smart) especially in social scenarios... idk man ik its not good for me deep down but I've just been doing it for so long I feel like it's apart of me and I'm sure the reason I've been so dependent for so long, is the result of my parents divorcing back when I was 10 and my whole world flipping upsidedown we moved to a diffrent city and everything i suspect I pretended that it was no big deal to myself and that was my own way of copping which then lead me somehow to some shady 13 year olds in grade 8 smoking weed thinking they were so cool...god I wish I would've never taken that first can pipe hit..... but I also know I have the power withinnme to quit I've done it before although not through will power but that's besides the point I think its time for me to leave weed In the past.....