I've read a bit of the book by Suzuki. Converted would probably be a better descriptor here, unless you are saying the belief in Islam is a reversion.

I'm having trouble imagining what view could be gathered from these influences that would be deemed as mind blowing or radically different from typical spiritual philosophies and beliefs. But allow me to share my own.

I myself have rather absurd viewpoints, but there are more or less derived from experiences within reality rather than spiritual philosophies or religions. There are philosophers that speak to them, and while I am no philosopher in the strict sense of the word, and have not read enough philosophy to consider myself well versed on the subject of causation and the potentials of mind and reality, I still have these opinions none the less, as I continue to find them unavoidable.

In essence (or a nutshell) I think reality/existence, is fundamentally absurd and trans-rational in an ultimate sense. Rationality exists in so far as it is a necessary condition of being and a consensual reality.

There also exists this phenomenon of coinciding coincidences, or synchronicity as Jung termed it, that I've been observing since childhood which are entirely baffling. I believe that such phenomenon are a driving force behind the arising of any given persons adherence or submission to spiritual thought and belief.

I also think dreams are entirely unexplained by any one, and science has no means of rationalizing their existence or meaning. I have always found it odd that there is not more philosophical discussion on the implications of their existence, but to me they have posed the question of whether or not we would even be self aware without them, as if by their illustration of un-reality, they inform us of reality.

After not sleeping for a couple days, I once walked off into the woods in my early twenties (I am 27 now) and sitting in a meditative posture on a knoll, sacrificed my ego for the betterment of humanity, submitting myself to all sensation and happenchance within the environment around me (letting mosquitoes suck my blood so that it might be an offering to nature for forgiveness, such was the thought in my mind) at which point my mind transcended into a euphoric state where my perception of movement and temporarily warped into something that I can only relate to as something like an Escher painting, in which I experienced the notion that we had all been here forever and our entire concept of death and birth was an illusion, and furthermore that we were all dead. Nothing I had consumed in literature or discussion had mentioned anything like this realization, and I can only describe it as nirvana.

There is more to this story and it gets far stranger, to a level that drove me to depression, as what occurred could never rightfully be believed by anyone, and this is the fundamental irony of it all. So ironic, that prior to said absurd events, that I had, in discussion with my teacher, described karma as ironical, which was a notion solely of my own making, in attempt to explain the buddhist term, in a rational sense beyond a cosmological belief in retribution, with the reality I had been experiencing of synchronicity happening more or less constantly, and the sort of cosmic joke that they presented to me.

It was only until recently that the thought and realization occurred to me (after wanting to forget everything that had happened to me in those events that happened only over a period of 3 days, but never being able to, because it all happened and my memory is entirely sharp and can only recollect literal events) that I looked like the stereotypical depiction of white Jesus and was born on 9/11. And so I went through a period of sitting on my patio doing nothing in deep energetic contemplation watching the changing of the weather and observing all the facets of my realizations and what caused them, and psychoanalyzing myself trying to fully decipher if I am fundamentally insane, or just experiencing a life that is entirely odd and unexplainable. But the conclusion I had reached during that time was that I am the antichrist.