but how? how do i let go?

how do i let go when it was "i'm not going anywhere" and then "i'm breaking up with you" just a few hours later? how do i let go when i waited just as he wanted me to when he was going through a rough time only for me to be dumped after said rough time has passed? how do i let go when i loved, love him wholeheartedly and limitlessly despite him thinking he was undeserving? how do i let go when he spoke in absolutes and i actually thought i could trust him? how do i let go when i feel like he genuinely cared? how do i let go when we spent all those good times together and was there for each other when we were struggling? how is it i am so expendable?

sorry for that. how does anyone at all let go?

i'll try to focus on myself and see where the future leads me. thank you