I guess I don't know if I'm walking out the door, but if I had a way to separate for a bit, I would.

I've been feeling a lot of resentment for the past 6+ months, which is the worst thing to feel toward your SO. I have been the sole breadwinner for over a year, including working two jobs at a time, to support him and our children. I work for a university and he has decided the right thing to do is use my tuition benefits to get another degree, which could take 2+ years. I don't even know how that will be possible since we can't afford to look at a daycare right now but I make too much for any sort of assistance and have a partner who isn't working during the day.

In the meantime, he's now employed for the first time in over nine months, but I have to leave work early twice a week, which my boss hates, plus take one of my kids to school early, which she hates. It causes me more stress than the $100 every two weeks may be worth, but we need the money just to get groceries.

Everyone says that financial problems are what drive most couples apart. I can see it now. I can't afford to go to therapy or for us to go to marriage counseling. Even if we have the money for a copay, we don't have a babysitter.

I haven't been able to bring things up without him getting very defensive or just shutting down because he feels criticized. Unfortunately, the only way I've been able to even get him to consider a job is to breakdown and cry. I've asked how he's feeling, if he needs anything, if he is depressed. He says he's really happy with the way things are. He loves being home with our toddler. He loves taking her to the gym every day and dropping her off while he works out. He loves the idea of going back to school.

I've been applying for more freelance gigs. I considered applying for a paycheck advance at work. I applied for a separate staff position that would require me to work an additional few days a month for a small stipend. I quit smoking because it's disgusting and expensive. I don't drink. I don't go out. The only time I have to myself is reading on a crowded train while commuting to work.