Almost two years ago I met this guy and we became pretty fast friends, I think. It's the kind of friendship where we're jokingly mean to each other and also excessively flirty. There was a level of physical attraction, but then I got stupid and caught feelings. I mean, I fell head over heels for this guy, it was ridiculous. But as far as I could tell there are no feelings on his side. He was home from school for the summer and we hung out last week and messed around a little, then he dropped me off and I felt pretty shitty because feelings so I hung out with a friend and got really high, then texted him that I have a stupid amount of feelings. He didn't know what to say but the next morning I got super drunk and told him to ignore those texts because I sent them while high. It sucks, I probably fucked up a great friendship but I was so tired of bottling stuff up. Like I kind of love the dude, that's hard to keep in after a certain point. Anyway he knows my reddit username so I'll delete this in a minute, I just needed to get it out.